suburbantragedy

“OnceMelodyleftme,itdawnedonme,lookingoutatallthosewonderfulcitylights,thatIwasjustoneofthosemillionsofcitylights,atinylittlepixel,buriedwithinthewhitenoiseoflife,blinkingonforjustabriefsecondintime.Ididn’twanttobeamartyr.Iwantedtobenobody.AndIwalkedoutofthatapartment,withonlytheclothesonmyback.Tobecomenobody.Ineverreturnedagain.”Iwasjustoneofthosemillionsofneonlights,blinkingforwarmthintheurbanruinsofacity.Iwasnobody,butI’dalwayswantedtobesomebody,asthoughI’dalwayswantedtobeseen.SometimeswhenIlookedoutofthewindow,Ifeltseizedbymesmerizingthoughts,andtheytookmeaway.Ilookedatpeopleasifobservingthem,orlookingatmyselfthroughtheireyes.Mysecularmindisneverworthyofthespontaneityoflife,thatIworshipped,chasedafter,andhadplacedinsomepeople’sbody.IfIhadbeenthearchitecturelonelyinthemiddleofnowheresand,Iwouldhaveseenmylifeasbeautiful,andreallysungasongtome.本文版权归作者Monaghan所有，任何形式转载请联系作者。