“Please.Letthatbetheenough.”

quot;Individually,thesethingsareallmanageable,youknow?Butit’s…Intotality,that’sthehardpart.That’swherethedepressioncomesin.AndI’vetriedsomuchstuff.Like,somuch.Therapy,medication,ketamine.…IthinkIwenttoofar…withthatone.Like,IthinkIhurtmyselfalittlebit.Yeah,butIguessitmakessenseifyou’relookingforamagicbullet,occasionallyyou’regoingtogetshot.ButIjustkeptthinkinglike,“Dude,howdidyouturnself-helpintoself-harm?”I’vebeensayingallnightthatsomething’swrongwithme.Andsomethingiswrongwithme.Iwon’tshowmyselfanykindness.Iwon’tgivemyselfanygrace.Like,Ijustgrindandattackmyselfrelentlesslylikeit’smyjob.Iwouldlovetostop.Iliketobelievethatmywaysofbeing,likemythoughts,myhabits,myemotions,mybeliefs…I’dliketobelievethatthey’renotdefects.I’dliketobelievethatthealchemyofapersonality…myspirit…it’sgottabeenough.Please.Letthatbeenough.quot;本文版权归作者西山所有，任何形式转载请联系作者。