God—inoursmind

从来没有这样看电影的感受，缓缓的乐音配合着赋有磁性男音，款款低语，时而悠远低沉，时而近在耳畔。说不清楚，我是被这样的声音所感动，还是被声音传递的内容所震撼。沉醉在其一遍之后，我再次重温了“上帝之音”的那一部分，并按照原音及字幕，原封不动地做了笔录（尽管我知道网上有下载）。“ConversationswithGod”所蕴涵西方的宗教与文化，我无法评述。源于不了解，源于我不是“他”。当然，就从影片的很多表达上而言，还是有很多矛盾，或者说不清晰的地方。比如，当Neale在演讲时，一个老头站起来责备Neale这些措词是冠冕堂皇的，一边口口声声说着“发乎于心的爱”，另一边又无法忠于家庭。Neale的回答是不能因为他个人生活的瑕疵，而否定“与神对话”的意义。这显然是一个无法让人满意的答案。最后，那老头让Neale用一句话总结God想对人类所说的话时，Neale的回答是“You’vegotmeallwrong.”God对Neale说“你们误解了我，也误解了你自己。”或许，我们从来都没有理解过所谓的God。God还说“真正杰出的人是那些选择怎样生活而不是怎样生存的人”。从西方个人主义的角度来看，这句话很有激励动力。然，站在另一个角度，就像Neale找不到工作只能在垃圾箱寻找食物的时刻，这些论调能在多大程度上帮助一个人StandUp？对于God，对于Life，我依然又数不尽道不完的置疑。这大概也是这部片子的主要所在，重要的不是God所说的，它只是一面镜子，让我们得以安安静静地对着它，反观自身。———————————————————————————————Nealeasked:Iwantanswers!Whatdoesittaketomakelifework?Godtoldtohim:Haveyouhadenoughyet?Haveyouhadenoughyet?Areyoureadynow?Doyoureallywanttoknowtheanswerstothequestionsyou’reasking?Areyougoingtoanswerme?You’veaskedalotofquestion.You’reangry.AndnowIaskyou,doyoureallywanttoknowtheanswerstothequestionsyou’reaskingorareyoujustventing?-Thisiscrazy.Iknowwhatyou’rethinking.AndItalktoeveryoneallthetimeintheirownvoice.Thequestioniswholistens?Fromthehighestmountainithasbeenshouted.Inthelowestplace,itswhisperhasbeenheard.Andthroughthecorridorsofallhumanexperience,thetruthhasbeenechoed.Loveistheanswer.YouhaveprojectedtheroleofparentontoGodandhavethuscomeupwithaGodwhojudgesandrewardsofpunishes.Youhavecreatedafearbasedrealityaroundlove.Andthisfear-basedloverealitydominatesyourexperienceoflove.Indeed,itactuallycreatesit.Itisfearthatyouneedinordertobe,doandhavewhatisintrinsicallyright?Mustbethreatenedinordertobegood?Andwhatisbeinggood?Whogetsthefinalsayaboutthat?Itellyouthis.Youareyourownrule-maker.Yousettheguidelines.Loveisallthereis.Yes,you’rehearditbefore.Infact,I’veevenputitonabumperstickerforyou.Butintimesoftrouble,intimesofworry,doubtorfearyouchoosetoforget.Whatyoushoulddoisanswerthesimplequestion–whatwouldlovedonow?Toliveyoulifewithoutexpectation,withouttheneedforspecificresults,thatisfreedom.Remember,Youareconstantlyintheactofcreatingyourself.Youare,ineverymoment,decidingwhoandwhatyouare.Youdecidethislargelythroughthechoicesyoumakeregardingwhoandwhatyoufellpassionateabout.Worryistheactivityofamindthatdoesnotunderstanditconnectionwithme.Doyourememberthequestion-whatwouldlovedonow?Answerthequestion,Neale.AndIwillbethere,always,inallways.Sufferinghasnothingtodowithevents,butwithone’sreactiontothem.What’shappeningismerelywhat’shappening.Howwefeelaboutitisanothermatter.Youcan’thaveanythingyouwantYourveryrequestisoneoflack.Andyousayingyouwantathingonlyworkstoproducethatpreciseexperience–wanting–inyourreality.ShouldIwouldpunishyouformakingachoicethatImyselfhavelaidbeforeyou?Thisisaquestionyoumustaskyourselfbeforeyouwouldassignmetheroleofacondemninggod.Unendinglyhaveyoubeseechedme,showmyself.Explainmyself.Revealmyself.Iamdoingsohereintermssoplainyoucannotmisunderstand.Iamhere.Righthere.Rightnow.Nowisthetimetogotoyourgodspace,moreandever.Itwillbringyougreatpeaceofmind.Andfromapeacefulminddogreatideasflowideaswhichcouldbesolutionstothebiggestproblemsyouimagineyourselftohave.Neale,you’vegotmeallwrong,andyou’vegotyouallwrongtoo.Idon’twantanythingfromyouratherthanforyoutobehappy.Butyouthinkyouarebelowme,whenintruth,weareallone.Thereisnoseparation.Iwantforyouwhatyouwantforyou–nothingmore,nothingless.Iamnotconcernedaboutyourworldlysuccess.Youarenottoworryaboutmakingaliving.Truemastersarethosewhohavechosentomakealiferatherthanaliving.Goahead.Dowhateveryoureallylove.Donothingelse.Youhavesolittletime.Howcanyouthinkofwastingamomentdoingsomethingforalivingthatyoudon’tliketodo?Thatisnotaliving.Thatisdying.AtlastDonotfeelabandoned,forIamalwayswithyou.Iwillnotleaveyou.Icannotleaveyou,foryouaremycreationandmyproduct,mydaughter,myson,mypurposeandmyself.Callonme,thereforewhereverandwheneveryouareseparatefromthepeacethatIam.Iwillbethere.