WhydidJohnkillhimself?

“Ionlyknowgoodness,andanger,andrevenge,andevil,anddesire.Theseseemtomefarbetterwordsthanneurosis,psychology,andparanoia.Theseoldwords,thesegoodoldwordshaveasortofconviction,whichallthismodernapparatusoflanguagenowlacks.Weburythesewords,thesesimplefeelings,weburythemdeep.Northebuildingoverthatconstitutesthiscenturywillnotwishthesefeelingsaway.”JohnMorganHoweasysometimesitistofakecheerfulness!Thesegoodoldwordsshallberespected,aswellasonestruefeelingstoo,respectedandrecognised,notfakednorburied.Thesewordsbuildthefundamentalsofhumanity,andthereisnothingwrongofcomingacrossthem,experiencingthem,feelingthem,deeply.Whatishinderingusfromexpressingwhatwereallythinkandfeel?Whatifdeathcomesandfindsusinutterore?Theboydiedwithcontentment,respectingthetruth.Whydidhehavetokillhimself?Hebroughtagunbeforehecame,obviouslyitwasaplanneddeathwithapurpose.Whatwasthispurpose?Ashewaswatchingfromthewindowthemarket,thepeoplecomingandgoinggettingtheirshoppingsdone,whatisinhismind?Isitthathecouldnotconnecttopeople?Hecouldnotcometotermswiththefakedcheerfulnessandpeace.Finallyhefoundhiscomrade,yet,sheshared,butdidnotwanttoadmit.Thesemutualfeelingselectrifiedthemboth,especiallyher.Shedidnotbelievesuchmomentsexistedthatwhentheycame,shedeniedandrejectedthem.Hethoughtshewouldbedifferent,butshechosetogivein,beingpartoftheprevailingsociety.LikeGandhi,deathisanon-violentwayofhimsayingNO.Maybetowakethelivinguptoo.本文版权归作者書匠所有，任何形式转载请联系作者。