一些从这部剧里学到的东西

Youknow,Ineverwantedtobeacorporateguy.Iwouldn’thavebeenableto,anyway.See,hardtogocorporatewhenyourdegreereadsnightschool.Harderstillwhenyourskinreadstheprojects,youknowwhatI’msaying?LaurieSolt,thisisnotmyworld,andIamnotabouttoapologizeforwearingmyuniform.Listen,youplayyourrole,right?You’reasocialworkerwhochoosestomakenomoney.Instead,youcrypoortotheworld.Youwearcheapclothessopeopleknowwhereyou’recomingfrom.Myworldisexpensive.I’mnotsayingitsanybetter.Itjusthasdifferentrules.Sobeit.MyproblemisIdidn’tsay,hey,youlooklikecrap,soIwouldappreciateitifyouwouldrefrainfrombeatingmeupforlookingdecent.Moneymatters.Now,thatcouldn’thavegonebetter.Soyoucanbackupthatcrapyouwerespewingoutinthere.Listen,thisishowbusinessisdone.Youreceiveanoffer,yourespondtothatoffer.Youwaittoolong;itgetspulledoffthetable.Takeitorleaveit.Idon’tknow,ifIhadn’trunupsuchhugeschoolloans,I’llbeworkinginpublicservice.Ithinkyou’reashark.Youjustdon’tknowityet.Myfatheralwaystoldmenottoworryaboutmakingmoney,buttoworryaboutmakingadifference.Moneymakesadifference.Alltheman-hoursscrapingaroundforminimumwage,theycan’tcompetewiththehugeinfluxofmoneythatyouarecapableofgenerating.Makethemoneyfirst,thenifyoustillfeellikeit,thengomakeadifference.Ithinkyou’reputtingonanact.Shelingersalittlelongwhenshelooksatyou,andsitswithherbodycompletelyopentoyou,andsmilesevenwhenyousayrudethingstoher.Thelaw’saloteasiertounderstandthanlife.Youjustfollowprecedents,trytointerpretthings.Ifsomeonedieswrongfully,youcanseekdamages.Theamountaperson’slifeisworthcanbemeasuredfinancially.Itdoesn’tleavealotofroomforthewaypeoplefeel.Youhavetostopthisthingbeforeitturnsintoadisaster.Short-termgain,long-termdisaster.I’mnotregular?I’macriminal?Butyou’rethecustomer.SothedifferenceisIdidittoraisemoneytoputfoodonthetable,andyoujustdiditforthesex.I’mwhateverIwanttobe.Iknowwhatit’sliketobeeager,towanttopleasethosemensomuchthatyouforgetwhoyoureallyare.Idon’tthinkIwanttodothis.Youliketoblameyourself,don’tyou?Well,youtellyourselfit’syourfaultandyouthinkthat’llmakemefeelbetter.Butyouknowwhat?Itdoesn’t.Itmakesyoufeelbetter.Idon’tthinkthisisgoingtowork.Imean,thetruthis,you’reself-absorbed.Youknow,yousitaroundwonderingwhyyou’renotclosertoyourson,butyouactuallylikethedistancethatyou’vecreated.Becauseitletsyousitback,donothing,andspendmoretimewithyourself.Hecanberude,standoffish…whenIfirstmethim,Itrulydislikedhim.ButofalltheimperfectpeopleI’vemetinthisworld,andthatwouldbeeverybody,Nickisoneofthefewwholivesbyasetofstandards.Idothinkhismindissetonthis.Idothinkhehastherightthingsinhismind.Andhe’sthekindofpersonwhowillfollowthrough.Mightbejusttoproveotherpeoplewrong…buthefollowsthrough.Youknow,IknowImeanttosaysomethingextraordinaryhere,butallIcansayisthatIwon’tletLesleydown.IknowthatIfailedmyself,that’strue.Iadmitthat.ButIwillnotfailthatgirl.IwillnotfailLesley.Notinmynature.Ifyoufelloffthefaceoftheearth,I’dthenthrowapartyeveryyeartomarktheanniversary.Sowhat,Nick?Becauseyou’renotthetopexpertinthewesternworld,you’rejustgoingtoblowmeoff?IliketoknowwhatI’mgettinginto.Youknow,Bill,ourfirmshavegottenalongsowellovertheyears.Youknow,referredclients,justkeptoutofeachother’sbusiness.I’djustliketocutthecraprighthere.Youknow,Ineverpoachedanyofyourlawyers.AndIwouldjustlikeyourwordasagentlemanthatyouwon’tpoachanymoreofmine.I’llbeup-frontwithyou,Burton.IamnotgoingtogiveyouanypromisesthatIcan’tkeep.Ithoughtyouwouldbeangry.Iknowhowyoufeelaboutmedatingboys.IcametoAmericatolivewithdignityandrespect.Ifsomeonedecidestoinsultme,I’mnotjustgoingtosmileandsaythankyou.I’msorry,Salaam,butjustbecauseyouhurtthisboy’sfeelingsdoesn’tgivehimtherighttodowhathedid!I’dbeverycarefulbeforeIbelievedawordthatcameoutofhismouth.Thatissooffensive.WhathaveIdonetooffendyou?Itrymybesttobefriendly,todogoodwork,andallyoudoistreatingmelikeI’msomestupidschoolgirl.BecauseIdon’tthinkyouwanttobeacorporatelawyer,Amanda.Icanseethatyoudon’tlikeitnow,andIdon’tthinkyou’regoingtolearntolikeitlater.Youseemlikeagoodpersonwhowantstodogoodthingswithyourlife.Andifthat’sthecase,Idon’tthinkyou’regoingtofindwhatyou’relookingforhere.Causality,howonethingcanleadtoanother?Yeah.It’sfate.No.Iamnotareligiousman.Allright,then,science.No.Logic.No.justchance,youknow?Youwalkthroughonedoorinsteadofanother.Youmeetonepersoninsteadofanother.What’sthat,freewill?Ha.No.Self-determination?pbbbt!No.youlifeischaoticwhenyou’rewalkingintoit,butitsallorderwhenyoulookbackatit.No.you’reblathering.It’snotchaotic.It’smoment.You’reinamomentnowandyouwereinamomentbefore.Youwerethereinthatmoment,andnowyou’rehere.It’sjustamoment,that’swhatitis.It’salreadyhappened.Youcan’ttakethataway.It’salreadyhappened,andI’velearnedtodealwithit.WhatmorecanIsay?It’sjustthewayitis.Thatwillbethat.Thesooneryoustopthinkingpeopleshouldcutyouslackbecauseyourparentsgotdivorcedandsentyouawaytoprepschool,orbecauseyourmomhascancer.Causebelieveme,noonecaresaboutyourproblems.Believeme.Butmaybebecauseyoudon’treallywanttodothis,you’reabletoremoveyourselfandhavethiskindofobjectivity.IactuallydowishthatIcouldbelikeyousometimes.Justautomatic.That’showIknowyouare.I’vebeenaroundyoulongenough.You’reTeflonman.See?ThisisexactlywhatI’mtalkingabout.Now,Ijustinsultedyou,andyoujustshrug.Yousortofmovethroughspace,andnothingtouchesyou.Ican’tdothat.I’mjustnotthatway.Igetveryattachedtothings,andeverythingbreaksmyheart.WhathaveIdonetoyou?Ifyou’reunhappywithyourchoices,thenthatisyourresponsibility.Youdon’tknowme.Youdon’tknowwhoIam.Ican’tseethepeopleatthemomentthat…causemylifehavechanged.IhavetendenciesthatIneedtocontrol.Idon’tlikeaskingyoutodothingforme.Iwantedtogointhearts,butmyfathertoldmetothinkaboutwhatIwasabouttodobeforeIwentandscrewedupmylife.That’sjustthegreatestthingtobeabletohave,tobesosuccessful.I’mreallykindofbadcompanytonight.Canwedothisanothertime?Idon’tthinkIwantthisplace.Justallseemslikesomuch,youknow?Idon’tthinkIwanttodowhatI’mabouttodo.Whathappenedyesterdaythatwasamistake.ItakefullresponsibilityforwhatIdid,butIshouldn’thavedoneit.Iwasnervousaboutthehouseandaboutgettingmarried,andIamcuriousaboutyou.I’vebeencurious.Butasrewardingandexcitingaspublicservicewas,toooften,itwasaboutwatchingyourbackinsteadofdoingyourjob.Needtotalkaboutit?Ithappenslikethisallthetime.Youdoyourjob,youfollowyourgut,anditblowsupinyourface.I’vebeenthere.Wanttogetacupofcoffee?Thiswasn’tsupposedtohappen.Weneedtogetpastthis.AllbecauseofwhatI’mdoingyoudon’tunderstand.Don’tletthempushyouaround.Nickjustcan’tseemtounwind.