ToAnna

DearAnna,ImwritingfromLeba,where2yearsagowetookouronlyvacation.ItookthetraintoStettin,thenIhitchhikedandwalkedalongthetracks.Therestofthetripwasontheoldfishingboat.Justlikewedidbackthen.AndnowIsitherewonderingwhyIwentthroughallthisagain.IwassohappywhenIbackthenthatIdidntknowwhattodo.Ineverthoughtthingswoundendthisway.Icantthinkofanythingbutyouandthedreamsthatwontfulfillednow,becauseIwasastupididiot.IknowImadethesamemistakeyoumade.Whodidwhatwithorwithoutfeelingsdoesntmatter.IknowIhurtyou,andthatmakesmeverysad.Youaskedmetoforgiveyou,andIsaiditwasntsosimple.Itissimple,ifImyswallowmydumb,malepride.Imdoingthatnow.AsIdoit,alltheangryisgone.Instead...Imemptyandsad.Anna,Idontknowwhattodo.Imissyousomuch.Imissyoursmile,yourskin.Imissyourlaugh,andyourswolleneyeswhenyouwakeup.IwantedtohavealittleAnnawithyouormaybefive.IknownIwasinattentive,notbecauseIdidntloveyouanymore,butbecauseItookitforgrantedthatwedalwaysbetogether.Anna,dontputmeoutonasheetofice.Iwantadignifiedoldage.Iwanttofeedtheduckswithyou.IknowthatIleft,butIreallywanttocomeback.Icannotlivewithoutyou,Anna.PS:Ifyoutakemebackagain,youcanletyourlegandarmpithairgrowasmuchasyouwant.Ipromise.Anna,Iwanttocomehomeagain.哎。。。幼稚老男人的成熟之路,