苦难岁月中的温暖与悲伤

一直对电影的结尾印象深刻，整个画面被一片朦胧的光晕所笼罩。男主角独自站在人群涌动的广场一角，他要回家了，他朝思慕想的家和深爱着的母亲。金色而温暖的阳光安静地洒在这片土地上，将他包围。委婉动听的音乐轻轻地在画面中流淌，男主角的画外音悄然响起：Evennow,evenhereIrecognizedit—myfavoritehourinthecamp.AndIwasfilledwithasharp,painfulandhelplessfeeling.Ifelthomesick.Yes,inacertainsenselifetherewascleanerandsimpler.Thosewhosavedmecamebacktome.ForthefirsttimeIthoughtofthemwithmildresentment,akindofaffectionategrudge.Butletsnotexaggerate.Iaccepteveryargumentforthepriceofbeingabletolive.Ilookedaroundinthatgentle,duskysquare,atthatstorm-tossedstreetwhichnonethelessheldsomuchpromise,Ifeltthereadinessgatherwithinme.Iwouldcontinuethisuncontinuablelifeofmine.Irememberedmymotherhadplansformetobecomeanengineer,oradoctor.Andthatswhatwillhappen:theresnothingtoounmaginabletoendure.AndinmyownwayIalreadyknowthat,lyinginwaitformelikesomeunavoidabletrap,ishappiness.Evenbesidethechimneysinthepausebetweentormentstherewassomethingsimilartohappiness.Peopleonlyaskaboutthehorrorsinthecamp,whereasIshouldtalkaboutthehappinessofthecampsnexttimeiftheyask.Iftheyaskatall.AndifIdontforgetmyself.